Posts tagged Personal
What is it with holidays
Jul 5th
Mitchell and I have the type of relationship that people envy. We are that gross couple you see in the store, all holding hand and sneaking kisses… until any holiday rolls around.
For some reason, we suck at holidays. New Years, he was in the shower when the clock struck midnight. He wanted a shower, I had been telling him for over an hour to hurry and get in and out so I’d get my New Year’s kiss. Nope, it was 2:30am before I got my kiss.
Valentine’s Day. I had this huge romantic surprise worked out in my head for him. I’d get off work, come home, clean the house, cook dinner, slip into something a little sexy for him. Yeah, I come home and he’s already home. Sick.
The Fourth, we had friends over for a BBQ then went to watch fireworks. All was great. We come back and get ready for bed. He decides he can’t sleep and he’s going to get up and watch tv for a while. No biggie. That was until I woke up at 11:45 and he wasn’t here. No note. I called his cell phone three times, no answer. I send him a text. Where the hell are you? He calls a few minutes later to tell me he’s out riding around. Seriously, how hard is it to leave a note, “Couldn’t sleep, out riding around”? The last thing that I would think is that he is out cheating. That isn’t the issue at all. I just don’t like to wake up and not know where the hell he is. We have had this exact problem before.
I just don’t understand how we are so perfect all year round, except for holidays.
Day Three
Jul 1st
I smoked 16 cigarettes yesterday. It is up 2 from the day before but, we were up until 2:30am and we were on the road for 5 hours.
I up my dosage today. I am starting to see that this medicine is working for me.
I also am starting Fitness Bootcamp Tuesday!
Day Two
Jun 30th
Yesterday was my second day of taking Chantix. I really didn’t think it had mad a difference, until I woke up this morning. I have 8 cigarettes left in my pack I bought yesterday morning! For you non-smokers out there, a pack of cigarettes contains 20. I normally smoke at least a pack a day. I had 2 before I bought this new pack on the way to work. So I smoked 14 instead of 20+ yesterday. I also noticed that I might still want a cigarette, but I would get half way finished with one and not want it anymore. So yes, I think the Chantix could be working.
Normally during our work breaks, I’ll smoke 2. I made an effort to only smoke 1 during our breaks yesterday. I simply just came back inside after my one. I also smoke a lot while driving. So when Mitchell and I took our trip to Walmart, I just left my pack at home. I am trying to make lifestyle changes along with taking the medicine. Once we got home and settled for the night, I only had 1!
Today is day three. I’m doing a lot of driving today so my goal is to just not smoke anymore than I did yesterday. Tomorrow my dosage of Chantix increases (the medicine tapers up), so I’ll set a goal of 10.
My grandmother also told me if I quit smoking, she will pay for me to go to Fitness Bootcamp. Bootcamp is a place here in town where you go work out for an hour, four days a week, for seven weeks. It is an intense workout routine. My boss lost 40lbs during his 7 weeks. He said it got him ready to start working out in the gym. Since then he’s lost 60lbs. I’m at the point where I need a jump kick like bootcamp to get going. I’m so out of shape.
So hopefully by the end of the summer I’ll be tons healtier. I’ll be smoke free and will have lost some weight and started on a getting fit journey!
Bye Bye Smokey
Jun 28th
Today I’m starting my journey to quit smoking. I went to the doctor yesterday to get a prescription for Chantix. Chantix actually works by making you not want to smoke. It also includes a support plan that helps track your smoking habits. So the drug helps the brain and the support program helps the habit.
You start with a low dose and taper up, while you taper down on cigarettes.
So wish me luck. I’m hoping to be healthier and smoke free by the end of July.